Begin Again. :)

Took a deep breath in the mirror,
He didn't like it when I got playful and childish,
But I do.
Turn the lock and put my headphones on,
He always said he didn't get this song,
But I do,

 I do.

Walked in expecting you'd be late,
But you got here early and you stand and wave,
I walk to you.
You pull my chair out and help me in,
And you don't know how nice that is,
But I do.

You look at me and start the conversation first,

You remember every nickname that we gave each other,

That is cute but he never did.

And you throw your head back laughing like a little kid.
I think it's strange that you think I'm funny, 

'cause he never did.

I've been spending the last eight months,
Thinking all love ever does is 

Break and burn and end.
But on a Wednesday in a cafe,

I watched it begin again.

You said you never met one girl,
Who had so much weird and crazy stuff to do,
But I do.
We tell stories and you don't know why,
I'm coming off a little shy,
But I do.

But you throw your head back laughing like a little kid,
I think it's strange that you think I'm funny,

'cause he never did.

I've been spending the last eight months,
Thinking all love ever does is

 Break and burn and end.
But on a Wednesday in a cafe,

I watched it begin again.

And we walked down the street to my block, 

and I almost brought him up,
But you start to talk about the movies that your family watches.
Every single Christmas and I want to talk about that,
And for the first time,

what's past is past...

Everything from now on,

It begins again.

∞

♥

70 to Nothing | 30 to Hold.

To You, 
I'm Giving My Last, 
For Now.

70 out of 100.   |   I give them back to where it should belong now, my feelings.
30 remaining.   |   I hold them back in a corner of my heart.

YOU, are always my biggest weakness.

Emotions and hormones running from high to low,

stretching from the bottom strikes beyond the horizon ;

and the reason is always orbiting around you.

I've tried so hard , for all the things I should and shouldn't do.

Should stop caring so much for you;

Should stop shedding tears for you;

Should get over you;

Should make myself happier;

Should make my life more easier;

Should finally say goodbye...

Shouldn't care bout you anymore;

Shouldn't have that terrible heartache when I heard about you;

Shouldn't have that urge to cry when I think of you;

Shouldn't fall for any single thing from you anymore;

Shouldn't be emotional and over-think for now...

But sometimes when I see you suffering from your obstacles in life,

I can't help but to reach out to you.

I just can't sit back and watch.

And yet, I offered my caring and overwhelmed feelings.

I know,
Some things, some people are meant to be parted.
Like Me & You.
It's been more than a year,
and we still couldn't get an answer.
And all we get for each other was
a Goodbye & a heartfelt smile. :')

You've been doing well after you left, I can see that.
And I wish for the best for you in your future,
I always got your back no matter what,
and you know that.

And I...well...
I wasn't having a good time back then.
A lot happened and changed.
But I'm better off now,
starting something new.
It's just that,
I'll still think of you and your deeds whenever 
I walk past somewhere we've spend time together before.
The memories are still fresh in my mind.


One last time,
ilyaimysm.

Goodbye. 
:')

And it's time to really let go of someone that ONCE meant so much to you.



♡

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It's been exactly 7 VII  months, since I last updated my blog.

I'M BACK ! :)

A LOT, changed within these 7 months. 
Families and friends, love and hate.
From smiles to frowns, 
laughter to tears, 
fears to fights.

I did not know how I survived and still get to breathe at this moment.

And I thought that I've lost myself in those sleepless nights.

I did.

I was so lost.

But now, I've gotten a tiny weenie lil better.
70%.

Thanks to a piggy that accompanied me throughout the time,

especially during my last semester break, up till now. :')

And...I think there's something between us.
I'm not sure, but...
Ohhwell, let's not rush and keep the flow going.

【THE RIGHT TIMING.】

I always believe that the right timing changes everything from what you've supposed to expect.

✪