Misconceptions. | 不一定。

黑暗似乎是一个可以无限把人的情感放大的空洞，

心底那一丝不安此刻特别的明显。

人在笑着的时候，不一定是开心的。

人流泪，不一定是伤心。

打了勾勾，约束好的约定，不一定会实践，也不一定会遵守着。

就像魔术先生帽子里藏着的，不一定是只无知的白兔子。

人类，会是善变的。

不是个缺点，而是个本能反应。

在遇上情势的改变和状况突出，人都会因而改变最初规划的行程。

正常的。

明白的。

可往往的一切一切，不是每个人都能理解。

事情的改变，会令人有几种反应`。

接受的，反抗的，不满的，逆来顺受的，无所谓的；

还有，

失望的。

世上的事儿，

不一定是不开心的，不一定是悲观的，

结局不一定是你想象中的那样的，

不一定  不一定。

若别人说白天是人们努力奋斗赚钱在社会上立足的话，

我会说白天是让人被綀绑在残酷的现实生活中斗个你死我活。

若他人说夜晚是黑暗的来临，恐怖的发生时，

我会说夜晚才是人们通宵欢乐，美梦成候的时刻，抛开所有进入自己世界的时候。

人对每样东西的观点和立场，都不同；

是视乎你用那一点去想，去判断，

用什么角度去看罢了。

换个角度去思考，换个态度去面对，

最后得的，肯定是不一样的。

我总会在事情发生的第一时间内爆发，

情绪溢满倾泻，冷静不了。

平静了，安静后，

才会回想起刚才的一切，

才会懂得思考，懂事些。

一时的冲动，永远的遗憾。

自己善于安慰别人，可自己却帮不了自己。

世上的人都是这样么？

也许吧？

不一定。

写这篇，

我不是发生了什么大件事。

而是偶尔会发现自己在平日中遇到的一切，

会有冲突，有不满，有遗憾。

可能整大篇，都没有直接的关联，

可这就是我想的。

深夜就是如此地让人变得感性（？）忧郁（？）

每一次都选择深夜无人的时候写些悲感的，有的没的，

或许是我犯贱吧。

自己真正是什么，每人自己也不一定懂。

写了就是让自己心里舒服一些。

也许日后阅回的时候，

会是种鼓励。

The misconceptions in us.

When You Smile, Sun Shines. 경수아, 미안.

" D.O. personally has lots of sasaengs." 

" There is this sasaeng fan who would always grab his elbow and stuff. Kyungsoo never says anything because what can he say/do? 

:< "

"kyungsoo smiled a lot in the past, but idk why he just give :| face or afraid face nowadays. then sports seoul explained everything. shit "

" And a bunch of TVXQ sasaengs actually became EXO sasaengs = =" unfortunately for the boys "

" Especially in airports, Kyungsoo is always either in the arms of another member, one of the managers or even the security guards. "

These are what the news interview reported, and what the local korean fans said.

Yes, I was thrilled, stunned.

And then, I realised.

So it's that why Chanyeol said, "ohh! D.O. smiled!!" during the backstage filming(?)

" We have so many sasaeng fans that I have been mentally victimized as well. I have changed my feelings about the normal fans as well. My personality changed also. I am usually someone that is not easily displeased but because of the sasaeng fans, I get displeased a lot. "

"Personally, because of the high prevalence of sasaengs, I’ve developed a sort of victim mentality. It’s serious to the point where my emotions switch even upon seeing regular fans. Even my personality has changed. I’m shy and wary of strangers by nature, but it’s become worse due to sasaengs."

YOU said.

I never knew, I'm sorry. :(                                                        

I thought you were fine all these while.                                                    

Even if you didn't smile a lot like the past these days,
all I thought was you were actually tired.                                                                 

I noticed these slight changes, but I didn't know that it was this severe.     

I'm sorry.                                                               

You got thinner.  You went more quiet at times.    
Is it because of your busy schedules?                  
Or is it because of this ?                                                                      

Your smile and emotions slightly changed when you're in the public,                            

as in outside the building, facing the fans.                
I thought it was nothing, but no,                                                                    

I was wrong, I'm sorry.                                                                

Would you be more happy & cheerful again? It's hard.                                                                 

I don't even know how are you I'm sorry.                                                    

I feel so useless so stupid so helpless all I do now is cry.                   

I can't be weak I can't cry and must be strong like you do, but I can't.                                
Tears just won't stop I'm sorry.                                                      

                                   

I don't know what to do.                                                         

My heart wrenched. It ached so badly.                                                                                   

I've never felt this way since so long ago.                      

I couldn't help. I wasn't with you, (forever).                                                                    

And our distance, got further.          

경수아,미안해. 미아해...

You're just a 20 year-old boy.

Please, people, please don't hurt him.

All I want and hope now is to see you getting better.

" When you smile, sun shines."

You sang that. :'(

But all I encounter now is,

Grey skies, I see no sunshines.

My eyes blurred by my tears right when I read the news.

You're hurt, so do I.

You must be missing your family and home a lot.

You just didn't show.

You were strong, I can see it.

Just like that day,
Everyone cried on stage, except you.

I know that you're keeping every damn thing to yourself.

原谅我的粗心大意，我不懂你的伤痛。

你精神上的受伤，是有多严重。

我一直没觉得有什么问题，直到今天。

 我。。。很失败吧？

竟然不以为是。

 被私生饭逼紧了，在精神上，心灵上，

你受伤了。

你恐惧，你会怕。

我们的距离，

又更远了？

 除了在台上，

最近的你变得稍微冷漠了，安静了，反应也暗淡了，

我都注意到了。

我以为，没事儿。

可我真的没察觉结果会变得这严重。
我着急，我担心。成员们都是。

对不起。

你瘦了，你看起来疲倦，累了。

  是行程太紧了么？

还是某些原因是因为她们？

我觉得很无助，帮不了你。

不能为你做点什么，

对不起。

我做的只有不停流下不争气的眼泪。

对不起。

好久没试过如此一瞬间快地哭了。

我心疼，我痛。

伤在你身，痛与我心。

我怎么会忽略掉这事情的发生？

对不起。

我不能哭，我不能败下来。

如果支持和爱护你的人都倒下了，

谁来守护你？

你该怎么办？

 我要为你坚强， 我的内心要变强大。

我会一直在，

虽然你这辈子都不可能知道有我这人的存在。

 可你也不需懂。

你要知道的， 

只是永远还有为你默默支持、爱护和守护这你的人，

就好了。

你一定想家了吧？

才20岁的男孩，遇上这样的遭遇。

可内心正真的感受，

你是不会露出来的。

那倔强，男子汉的个性，

卑微谦虚低调的性格，

这就是你啊，

都暻秀。

唯一的你。

是因为这样才让我爱着的你。

所以再一次的，

你好吗？

让我陪你度过一切吧。

I saw you smiling and laughing during the radio shows today.

I'm kinda relief. :')

But the concern still remains.

You are the happiest when you sing,

and be together with the boys and your hyungs，

indoors.

Only your voice could calm me down and cheer me up.

I want the smiley and cheerful Do Kyungsoo back,

like the newly debut days.

That Kyungsoo was my first and favourite.

But I'll still love you as the way you are,

up till today, and for the rest of the days,

no matter what.

你今天笑了，

就好。

每日看见你的笑，

才让我精神起来。

唱歌是你的生命，

而舞台就是你生命的阶梯。

只有这时刻，

你才最灿烂，最开心。

请一直这样下去吧。
把以前常微笑和欢脱的都暻秀
带回来吧；

就像最初出道的时候。

那是我EXO初心，
最喜欢的都暻秀。

往日，日后，以后，至永远，

只要你还在，

我就会在旁陪你，支持你，

守护着你。

让我有正能量的你，爱着你的我。

 

 

 

                     

\

  

❤

경수야,

내가 너를 보호해서요， 계속수호합니다.

사랑한다.

Meteor Dream. ✳☆✴

It said that there will be meteorites dashing across tonight.
Cloudy skies, bright city lights, and I couldn't find my fallin' meteors.
It must be beautiful, by its own appearance.
It must be wonderful, to the people who saw it tonight.
Went out to the town, rounded to the rural sites, 
but I still can't see a single flare of the meteorites.
I wasn't lucky I guess.
Always.

Wanted to made wishes outta meteorites for the 1st time in my 18 years of life,
but no, I couldn't.
Chance & luck weren't on my side.
Well, I'll just keep these wishes in my heart, or maybe when I see airplanes buzzing across the night sky, I'll just stupidly wish at 'em.
W H A T.

Fate. Chance. Timing. People.
When all these come together, it's a perfect harmony.
Things go right and perfectly succeeding with all these right combinations.
Well...when everything REALLY comes together accordingly in their rightful timing.

Path of a Shooting Star;
how short.
Hahh, quite similar to what's happening tonight.
Just a split of a second, things might just happen without knowingly.
You couldn't catch time, but to go along with it.

I dream to have a perfect dream,
I dream to fulfill my dreams,
and 
I dream.

Dreams and the glittering shinning stars,
Though I extend my hand, though I extend it with all my strength, I can’t reach you
It seemed like I got closer so I called you with a fluttering heart
But there’s no answer, I guess I can never reach you.

내 꿈이, 그반짝하고 빛나는 별

손을 더 뻗어도 온 힘을 다해 뻗어도넌 닿지 않아

가까워진 듯 해 설렌 맘에 불러봐도

대답 없어 넌 절대로 닿을 수없나 봐

★

혼잣말이라서,미안해. Monologue.

每一次的回忆都如此可笑，不堪回首。
天上数落的星星谁又能懂? 遗忘太多。
嬉笑之际是否又是真情?秘密隐藏着。
皮肉之痛永比不上心扉的劳累苦疼。
笑看了就罢，追逐不实只会自欺欺人。
脸上的面具戴久了，以往的我早已失。
和风细雨的生活也愿他人个『铭记于心』。
开住心房任人进出蹂躪，真诚的有谁？
朗净的琥珀月色犹如自心，孤独冷清。
的当山翁未觉秋，不因霜叶辞林去也。
我没祈求过回报，望的只是真心对待。
其实内心怎都会受伤，付出竟是如此。
实践梦想真的不容易，牺牲也必会有。
也许别人眼里看似简单，辛酸尔不知 。
会否有珍惜自己的人出现在生命里呢？
累了疼了伤了痛了泪了那个他都会在。

哈。
就...这样，
吧。

으르렁 으르렁 으르렁 咆哮吧！GROWL LIKE EXO!

1st of August 2013, The day had arrive...

G R O W L !

THIS IS JUST SO EXO.

FUNKY GROOVY HIPHOP KRUMPING AND A TOUCH OF SLOW JAM BREAK.

This is what EXO really stands. fuck it the boys nailed it!

" Although it leans hard on the clavinet-based grooves of legendary hip hop producer Dr. Dre, "Growl" carves out its own niche through its inventive use of slow jam breaks in what is primarily a dance floor stomper and a melody that has the irresistible simplicity of a nursery rhyme. "
- what the kpop news site commented. ohhjyeahhh >B)

I just can't, I CAN'T HOLD MYSELF. WTF

THIS IS JUST TO IRRESISTIBLE.

THANKYOU SO FUCKING MUCH JORDAN KYLE!! ❤❤❤❤❤

THANKYOU THE HOLY MOTHER COMPANY SM. ENTERTAINMENT (for both EXO's WOLF + GROWL comebacks)

Look at the choreo, look at their godly handsome faces,

Listen to the freaking catchy & unique melody, AND OF COURSE THEIR VOCALS.

AND AND AND THE FREAKING FILMING STYLE! SHIT WTF THIS IS TOO MUCH.

Fangirls had their ovaries exploded while fanboys had their freaking balls exploded.

LMAO.AM REALLY LOOKING FORWARD TO THE FOLLOWING PERFORMING STAGES!

我 으르렁 으르렁 으르렁 你 ！

나 으르렁 으러렁 으르렁 대 !

❤