When You Smile, Sun Shines. 경수아, 미안.

" D.O. personally has lots of sasaengs." 

" There is this sasaeng fan who would always grab his elbow and stuff. Kyungsoo never says anything because what can he say/do? 

:< "

"kyungsoo smiled a lot in the past, but idk why he just give :| face or afraid face nowadays. then sports seoul explained everything. shit "

" And a bunch of TVXQ sasaengs actually became EXO sasaengs = =" unfortunately for the boys "

" Especially in airports, Kyungsoo is always either in the arms of another member, one of the managers or even the security guards. "

These are what the news interview reported, and what the local korean fans said.

Yes, I was thrilled, stunned.

And then, I realised.

So it's that why Chanyeol said, "ohh! D.O. smiled!!" during the backstage filming(?)

" We have so many sasaeng fans that I have been mentally victimized as well. I have changed my feelings about the normal fans as well. My personality changed also. I am usually someone that is not easily displeased but because of the sasaeng fans, I get displeased a lot. "

"Personally, because of the high prevalence of sasaengs, I’ve developed a sort of victim mentality. It’s serious to the point where my emotions switch even upon seeing regular fans. Even my personality has changed. I’m shy and wary of strangers by nature, but it’s become worse due to sasaengs."

YOU said.

I never knew, I'm sorry. :(                                                        

I thought you were fine all these while.                                                    

Even if you didn't smile a lot like the past these days,
all I thought was you were actually tired.                                                                 

I noticed these slight changes, but I didn't know that it was this severe.     

I'm sorry.                                                               

You got thinner.  You went more quiet at times.    
Is it because of your busy schedules?                  
Or is it because of this ?                                                                      

Your smile and emotions slightly changed when you're in the public,                            

as in outside the building, facing the fans.                
I thought it was nothing, but no,                                                                    

I was wrong, I'm sorry.                                                                

Would you be more happy & cheerful again? It's hard.                                                                 

I don't even know how are you I'm sorry.                                                    

I feel so useless so stupid so helpless all I do now is cry.                   

I can't be weak I can't cry and must be strong like you do, but I can't.                                
Tears just won't stop I'm sorry.                                                      

                                   

I don't know what to do.                                                         

My heart wrenched. It ached so badly.                                                                                   

I've never felt this way since so long ago.                      

I couldn't help. I wasn't with you, (forever).                                                                    

And our distance, got further.          

경수아,미안해. 미아해...

You're just a 20 year-old boy.

Please, people, please don't hurt him.

All I want and hope now is to see you getting better.

" When you smile, sun shines."

You sang that. :'(

But all I encounter now is,

Grey skies, I see no sunshines.

My eyes blurred by my tears right when I read the news.

You're hurt, so do I.

You must be missing your family and home a lot.

You just didn't show.

You were strong, I can see it.

Just like that day,
Everyone cried on stage, except you.

I know that you're keeping every damn thing to yourself.

原谅我的粗心大意，我不懂你的伤痛。

你精神上的受伤，是有多严重。

我一直没觉得有什么问题，直到今天。

 我。。。很失败吧？

竟然不以为是。

 被私生饭逼紧了，在精神上，心灵上，

你受伤了。

你恐惧，你会怕。

我们的距离，

又更远了？

 除了在台上，

最近的你变得稍微冷漠了，安静了，反应也暗淡了，

我都注意到了。

我以为，没事儿。

可我真的没察觉结果会变得这严重。
我着急，我担心。成员们都是。

对不起。

你瘦了，你看起来疲倦，累了。

  是行程太紧了么？

还是某些原因是因为她们？

我觉得很无助，帮不了你。

不能为你做点什么，

对不起。

我做的只有不停流下不争气的眼泪。

对不起。

好久没试过如此一瞬间快地哭了。

我心疼，我痛。

伤在你身，痛与我心。

我怎么会忽略掉这事情的发生？

对不起。

我不能哭，我不能败下来。

如果支持和爱护你的人都倒下了，

谁来守护你？

你该怎么办？

 我要为你坚强， 我的内心要变强大。

我会一直在，

虽然你这辈子都不可能知道有我这人的存在。

 可你也不需懂。

你要知道的， 

只是永远还有为你默默支持、爱护和守护这你的人，

就好了。

你一定想家了吧？

才20岁的男孩，遇上这样的遭遇。

可内心正真的感受，

你是不会露出来的。

那倔强，男子汉的个性，

卑微谦虚低调的性格，

这就是你啊，

都暻秀。

唯一的你。

是因为这样才让我爱着的你。

所以再一次的，

你好吗？

让我陪你度过一切吧。

I saw you smiling and laughing during the radio shows today.

I'm kinda relief. :')

But the concern still remains.

You are the happiest when you sing,

and be together with the boys and your hyungs，

indoors.

Only your voice could calm me down and cheer me up.

I want the smiley and cheerful Do Kyungsoo back,

like the newly debut days.

That Kyungsoo was my first and favourite.

But I'll still love you as the way you are,

up till today, and for the rest of the days,

no matter what.

你今天笑了，

就好。

每日看见你的笑，

才让我精神起来。

唱歌是你的生命，

而舞台就是你生命的阶梯。

只有这时刻，

你才最灿烂，最开心。

请一直这样下去吧。
把以前常微笑和欢脱的都暻秀
带回来吧；

就像最初出道的时候。

那是我EXO初心，
最喜欢的都暻秀。

往日，日后，以后，至永远，

只要你还在，

我就会在旁陪你，支持你，

守护着你。

让我有正能量的你，爱着你的我。

 

 

 

                     

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❤

경수야,

내가 너를 보호해서요， 계속수호합니다.

사랑한다.