Monday, 29 July 2013

你们 • 내 절친 :)

其实很多时候,
一句话,一个眼神,
就能传达很多。
是鼓舞,是支持,是信任。
那些长篇大论我们不是不知道,
只是换个人说可能会达到不一样的效果。
就如同那些安慰的话语,
只是换个人告诉自己,
就会显得格真实。

我能帮的,我都会。
好朋友需要,我都会给。
因为你们是我最软弱之一。
我重视的,是那份友谊。
看见你们不开心了,
我也不好过。
我是那种不会很主动,
不会第一时间很热情的去问候。
因为我知道,
伤心的人,
都需要清静。
原谅我不大方的体贴,
原谅我不像他人给予你第一时间的温暖问候。
我唯一只做的,
是默默地安慰,
在不显眼的地方写下当时想对说的话。
哪怕只是一两回字,
不在乎字数,重要的是那份 [意]。
默默的动静也许看起来很冷漠,
但,
等你正真需要时我才伸出已准备的双手;
我只等待你转好。
今天你我大家都不太好,
2013年7月份的最后一个星期一,
竟然灰得如此。

就让在眼眶打转得累疼的眼泪滴下吧。
不是说眼泪是我们说不出的字语演化成的么?
哭吧,
因为我也哭了。
平时当你们的聆听者安慰你们就别说啦,
也不必感到歉意,
等我日后真的不行的时候,

帮帮我吧。

也许一天我真的累了,
疼了,
伤了,
我也需要,甚至渴望任何一方的打救。
因为,
我需要你们。

没有了你们,
说真的,
我死不去。
可我不会再是现在的我,
是个不完整的我。

我啊,
当我会在你面前卸下武装拆下面具掉泪放声大哭时,
就是我对的你至高的信任。
机会不多。
而在这情况时,
我心是真的累了。

如果不是学会了笑看和遗忘,谁又可以毫发无伤。
哈。



"왜 이렇게 나 혼자만 아파?!"
"아...괜찮아. 난 항상 여기있을 것이다.. 내 절친. :)"
하트.





여름아 이젠 Goodbye... | Goodbye Summer.

I remember when we were yelled at for talking in the halls
I don’t know why it was so fun even when we were being punished
After that day (yeah yeah) we always (yeah yeah)
Stuck together like the 
Astro twins/ Gemini horoscope, you were me and I was you


You cried so much on the day before graduation
You held it in firmly since you’re a guy
Just like that hot summer when we couldn’t say what we wanted, goodbye

The 
friend label is a label that I got to hate
The feelings I’ve hidden still remain as a painful secret memory
The photos that can’t define our relationship is a heartbreaking story
I’m sorry, summer, now goodbye, yeah


What do 
I say, we didn’t have to play no games
I should’ve took that chance, I should’ve asked for you to stay
And it gets me down the unsaid words that still remain
The story ended without even starting


Your song on the last day of the school festival, the flickering summer sea
Our feelings that were precious because we were together
Like the deepening night sky, goodbye


The friend label is a label that I got to hate
The feelings I’ve hid still remain as a painful secret memory
The photos that can’t define our relationship is a heartbreaking story
I’m sorry, summer, now goodbye, yeah


Baby oh no oh oh
I’m sorry that this is a monologue
Oh, actually, 
I love you, yeah
If only our long-time hidden secrets were revealed
I would hold you in my arms


The friend label is a label that I got to hate
The feelings I’ve hid still remain as a painful secret memory
The photos that can’t define our relationship is a heartbreaking story
I’m sorry, summer, now goodbye, yeah


The friend label is a label that I got to hate

A heartbreaking story, I’m sorry, summer, now goodbye, yeah

기억해 복도에서 떠들다 같이 혼나던 우리 둘
벌서면서도 왜 그리도 즐거웠는지 알았어
그날 이후로 (Yeah Yeah) 우린 늘 (Yeah Yeah)
쌍둥이 별자리처럼 넌 나 나는 너였어
졸업하기 전날 많이 울던 너 남자라고 꾹 참던 너
하고 싶었던 말 못하고 뜨거웠던 그 여름처럼 안녕
* 친구라는 이름 어느새 미워진 이름 감추던 감정은 지금도 아픈 비밀의 기억일 뿐
우리 사인 정리할 수 없는 사진 보면 가슴 아린 Story, I’m sorry 여름아 이젠 Goodbye Yay-Yeah
What do I say We didn’t have to play no games
I should’ve took that chance I should’ve asked for u to stay
And it gets me down the unsaid words that still remain
시작하지도 않고 끝나버린 이야기
축제 마지막 날 너의 노래도 아른한 여름 바다도
함께라서 소중했던 맘 늦어가는 밤 하늘처럼 안녕
* 친구라는 이름 어느새 미워진 이름 감추던 감정은 지금도 아픈 비밀의 기억일 뿐
우리 사인 정리할 수 없는 사진 보면 가슴 아린 Story, I’m sorry 여름아 이젠 Goodbye Yay-Yeah
Baby Oh No Oh Oh 혼잣말이라서 미안해 Oh 사실은 널 사랑해 Yeah
숨기고 있던 오랜 비밀들 차라리 들켰다면 너를 품에 안아줄텐데
* 친구라는 이름 어느새 미워진 이름 감추던 감정은 지금도 아픈 비밀의 기억일 뿐
우리 사인 정리할 수 없는 사진 보면 가슴 아린 Story, I’m sorry 여름아 이젠 Goodbye Yay-Yeah
친구라는 이름 어느새 미워진 이름 보면 가슴 아린 Story, I’m sorry 여름아 이젠 Goodbye Yay-Yeah
랄랄랄랄라 랄랄랄랄라랄랄 랄랄랄랄라 랄랄랄랄랄라

여름아 이젠 Goodbye...


It's been a long while since the last time, listening to the first line of the song and I started to shed tears.
I don't know why. 
Maybe it's your voice kyungsoo... or maybe it's the melody of this song.
It touched that very soft part of my heart.
Songs are just that subtle.
It may either make you get along with / drown in the rhythm and the melody , 
or make you break down and cry.
And the lyrics are the most devastating part.
That's the key point which make you get all the feeeeeels.

and that one thing that hits me the most is,
they sing all these sad / sentimental songs with a smiling voice.
开朗且笑着唱悲歌感觉更伤。
It really hurts a lot.
A lot.
Just imagine smiling warmly while waving goodbye to your loved ones and never come back;
smiling at that someone that will never return and tell him/her,everyone,including yourself 
" Go. It's okay. :') "
How much pain you hide inside yourself?
:'(
I could never get through it.



Monday, 22 July 2013

N E W.

[FINALLY PUBLISHING THIS FREAKING POST WHICH WAS DRAFTED ON THE 15TH JUNE 2013. *claps*]

so....it's been ages QUITE A WHILE since I last blogged. screw it I had no time to blog okay sorry kthxbai.
FINE. I admit it. Never blog for more than 20 days  holy crap -.-
get back to the main point,no one wants to know your crap bout how-many-blogging-days. Stick to the story dude. 

well Well WELL...
I'm currently starting a new life, in a new environment, meeting new friends, knowing new people, learning new stuffs, exploring new things, gaining new experiences, etc. 
Basically, everything's NEW.
Had homesick for the first few days and ya know what? It's fucking  a w f u l.
Seeing my family leave from the gate of my hostel, I felt that time froze and my heart just ache for a moment, which is forever in the world of frozen time.
Just a call from anyone of 'em will just make my heart so soft,so fragile, and a goodbye will break the pieces in me.
My hostel is an oven. All I do in the hostel is groan,complain and  S W E A T.
So....as you can imagine, I LONGED TO GO HOME SO FUCKING RIDICULOUSLY. 
*where heaven is a place on earth with air-conds. 
I'll make myself to go back as often as possible. Going back to home-sweet-home-cocoon 2 weeks once, or even every week.

YEAH, cause I miss my homeland. :'(


I miss everything in Ipoh, and I miss everyone from Ipoh.
Nothing beats my precious home & family. And yes of course, my BFFs.
Y'ALL KNOW WHO YOU GUYS ARE! ;D

Met new friends, am getting along quite well too. And now it's time to "SORT 'EM OUT".
Who are the good ones,and the bad; as in personality and attitude.
This ain't mean or cruel, this is reality.

No one will ever find true friendship here, YOU MIGHT, but it ain't easy.
I've learnt howta put on a smile and let things go in front of them.
I don't care who's nice who's dumb who's the badass in class. As long as I ain't harmed, I can pretend that nothing happened. 
It's all up to you guys, them
People might talk at everyone's back and befriend with them so cheerfully in the other way.
Well I don't care. That's your business. 
I won't be a "commentator" between everyone, or be a middle-man to solve things for ya. 
I won't.
I just want a peaceful set of mind and a learning environment. 
That's all I want, that's what I want.
That's all.

LOL. After all, my college life ain't bad.
EXCEPT FOR ALL THE FUCKING SHITLOADS ASSIGNMENTS AND PRINTING AND AND AND ANDDDDD GOLD-VALUED ART MATERIALS. HOLY CRAP IMMA CRASH EVERYTHING ON THE WALL AND SLEEPDEAD.

whoooops.... 
Crazy playful cheerful creative childish vulgar noisy classmates.
The people in my class are alright. well ~ despite some lil secrets hidden behind each other.
*grins* >B)  i won't tell.

So...
this is my current life!
I supposed that this is the life that will lead me to my dreams & passion ;
An adventurous one, a fun one and a glorious one.

;)


Wednesday, 17 July 2013

SHADOW.

Love exists, but with an absence of eternity. 
At the first moment of a lovers’ encounter, there is an affirmation of love
Psychologically, lunacy, emptiness, panic, delusions, that the moment will last forever. 
I’m seized by desire. 
I hide behind my back, and postpone all answers.


- Shadow < Pink Tape • f(x) >




Rain • Talks. 雨•音

今天,又下雨了。
回家路上,每一滴雨水打在我肩膀上时,
总会勾起些画面回忆,也有少许的诗意。
哈,就纯粹的感触吧。

一个人的时候,
就得靠自己。
为你撑伞的,只有你自己。
路边堆起的那滩水,
被踏过后所引起的涟漪,
一阵过后就会消失,化为平静。
犹如他人在生命里当的过客,
在心里游走过,留下一步一脚印,
心动过的节奏,在那刻挥之不去。
可时间却冲谈了所有,
滴答滴答。。。
把一切拉回到现实,
安静重现。

雨后,天晴;
美好场景虽在眼前,
但鞋上残留的雨滴和泥垢,
雨迹仍在,
那是改变不了的事实。
在一道伤愈合后的疤,
永远都会在。
旧事不再从提,
可那已种在心里底部最隐秘之处。

淋湿了,
就让它沾湿吧。
都一样。
过去,
就让它悄悄地溜走吧。
都过了。
往后,
徜开心房过着吧。
都需要。

有时静下来想一想自己所谓的【人生道理】,
真的很不错。
滥文艺也好,假感触也罢,
觉得有意思,觉得荒谬无聊无道理,
这是我心中所想啊。

雨天。。。
就是特别令我 [想]。




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