Saturday, 25 January 2014

January, Missing all these tiny lil bits. ❥

ID Year 1 Sem 3 has started a few weeks ago and yeah...I'm still trying to get use to it.
New timetable, new subjects, new level of satisfying lecturers with our assignments and projects.
Semester 3, it's a short sem thou. 
Approximately 7-8 weeks of this sem's duration. ( and yeah, 3 classes in a week.)

I don't know whether I should shout hooray or cry myself a river.  o(/__\)'''

3 classes in a freaking week, but the assignments & projects are kinda difficult and packed too.
CAUSE AFTER ALL THE CLASSES FROM MONDAY - WEDNESDAY, 
I TEND TO SLACK LIKE CRAP AND GET EXTREMELY LAZY.  C H I L L ~~
I don't wanna rush my assignments anymore for god's sake. -.-

PLEASE MINJET, STAHHHP.

BYE


Right, get back here memes! Still have quite much to tell.

OHHKAY, so everyone of us is still in our same positions, same classes.
But the only thing that I hated was our time spent together.
SUCHA SHORT TIME WHEN WE ARE ALL TOGETHER AWWMANNNN...THIS SUCKS.
And a few classmates dropped off this semester...ain't coming back. THIS SUCKS AGAIN.
Just like what the seniors say...
"The group in your class will get smaller and smaller...and it might end up only half of your class get to graduate (at the same time, or maybe not.)"

I don't want this to happen. 

Missing all the crazy moments we have together. 
Missing all the busy-rushing-assignments-for-life-before-class-starts together.
Missing all the fooling around, talking crap, singing songs like no one hear us and laughing like a herd of mad goats in the classrooms & everywhere.

Well it's not that we DON'T HAVE it anymore, but the time was short.
It wasn't as frequent as before.
I want more, M O R E. YEAHHH IMMA GREEDY PIECE OF SHIEETTT. (*Who cares...

and MOST OF ALL...

I MISS SEEING YOU.

It's like...the moment we talk and seeing each other in class are like EXTREMELY LITTLE.
Cause ya know...we both have our own classmates, our own gangs so... YEAH. hmphhhh
The only time we talked and laughed and seeing each other will be at night, LATE NIGHTS.
Yumcha session in our 3rd home a.k.a Bistro D'Sayang Mamak stall.
(Fine everyone calls it Sayang, just SAYANG will do. WHATTHECRAPAMIBULLSHITING
Well...I'll always see you with your brothas in Sayang every now and then in the midnight.)

Yeahh...that's what bothers me the most aside from assignments and where-to-eat question everyday.

I want to know where will you be after every Wednesday.
I can ask, but I'm afraid. YEAHH COWARD ME. sigh...
I just... don't wanna bother you.
Like, I don't wanna be a tracker a stalker or someone that seems so CLINGY. (*is that even right? IDK *confused*

I was avoiding you these days AND I DON'T EVEN FUCKING KNOW WHAT'S THE DAMN REASON. DANG IT.
I looked away and stayed far from you every time we had eye contact /  being together.
I just couldn't look you in the eyes and YEASH I BECAME SO SENSITIVE THAT I WANNA DIE.
Am so sensitive to whatsoever that you talk & do to me, or even the other people.
Then I start to get emo "eventually". DAFUQ WHAT'S MY PROBLEM BITCH  ;[

Thinking that our Sem 3 is gonna end this early March makes me even sadder.
Cause 2 months of semester holidays are awaiting for everyone of us.
And so...You'll be going back to KL for sure, and I'll be forever stuck in Sunway or Ipoh.
We MIGHT get to hangout thou...I MEAN LIKE MAYYYYYBE.
cause I'll probably be staying back in Sunway to work.. (Freelance / part time Interior sketcher.)
So... we'll see then.  :|
*FINGER CROSSED*

I miss our ID1305 moments.
I miss every single bits happening from the start of this year. 
...


and I miss every tiny thingy even the air when I'm with you.
Pour me magic dust, so I could make a wish every once in a while.

Tuesday, 21 January 2014

WHAT NOW? 我们还是我们。

新学期了,
大家又重逢咯!
也幸好,
我们大家都没变。
不陌生,
感情依然在!
然而见到你,
我的心还是会照常扑通扑通地跳。


你和我,
都在保持着有一定的距离。
在这距离上,
我至少是感到比较安全,安心的。
不渴望结果会如何,
但我还是想保持着这样的角色和关系。

我,
一个还可以变害羞的角色,
一个还可以互损对方的朋友,
一个还可以一起上课的同学,
一个还可以关心你一切的傻子,
一个还可以骂你担心你驾驶的着急鬼,
一个还可以和你唱歌看电影喝茶的伴,
一个...
还可以站在远处偷偷望着你就足够了的女生。

而至于你,
我却不懂。

有时難耐的是,
我永远假裝做對方的好朋友,
但每天都會問自己,
要繼續,還是要放手,
而對方或許明知道我的問題,
卻始終不會讓我知道真正答案。

其实有好几次,
都太明显了。

朋友们故意的玩弄;
我自己表现特害羞;
还有真心话大冒险。

也许要谢谢你?
谢谢你的淡定,
你的无所谓,
你的不计较,
你的随意,
你的淡笑。

但有时当你说某些东西的时候,
会故意望着我,
像是在暗示什么,
又像是表示其实你懂得蛮多。

我总会承认是我自己的多情多心多意。
也许你做的一切根本没有任何特别的意思,
但对我来说,
那会是很多。
当一个人对另一个人倾心时,
TA对TA做的每一个举动都
means the whole world to them.

特心疼你抽烟的时候。
你说过,
你可以不抽,
能戒掉,
不难。
每天都会借意问问你今天抽了多少。
开心的是,
数量一天比一天变少了。

我会问,我会想;
其实你抽烟的时候,都在想神马?
你总会说,
没有啊,放空咯。
想想自己今天做了些什么,
想想生活,
想想 brothers,
想想功课。
想想如果我一天发生意外死了后,会怎样。
会不会有人想起我时,就点根烟放在桌上来表示思念。
就酱啊~ 想些有的没的哈哈哈哈哈哈

心还是疼。
傻的吗?
傻子。

很高兴由你的关心,
每一个细节我都记得。
你会揉揉我的头,
大家在玩笑时
你会唱歌安慰我,
拍拍我的肩膀。
不太开心时,
你会问我怎么了。
深夜时,
你会陪我回家。

还有让我最喜欢的,
是你身上的味道。
很香。
只要你经过附近时,
就闻到了。
是洗衣碱的味道?还是你家里的味道?
记得你让我们进你房间的时候,
房间都充满了你的味道。
除了这,
还有你淡淡的菸味。
都记得,
仍认得。

有时候看见你和其他同学斗嘴斗得这么厉害,
为何我没有?
我会开始觉得 为什么呢?
她们说你看着我的眼神会不一样,
说话的语气也不同。
我倒是不知道,也不肯认同。
因为平时我不能和你对上眼超过5秒,
一定把视线飘走。
我不想自以为是。
毕竟她们和我,
都不是你腹中的虫儿。
若最后不是事实,
我也不会摔得那么伤。
越高的期盼,
越深的伤害。
还是最自我残虐的那种。

对于男生来说,
我有种恐惧感。
不是害怕男生,
而是对他们所说的一切和承诺,
都不敢放100%的信任。
有时会觉得他们说的,
都不是真的。
但自从在学院里认识的男同学们,
都挺好的。
至少,
真的没被骗过。
骗的,
都是开玩笑来的说。

至于你,
每一次说的都会办到。
电影的约,
唱K的约,
喝茶玩耍之类的都有实践到。

让我最大吃一惊的那一次,
是我那时蛮担心你的心情的,
所以和另一位同学
在临晨5点多拨了通电话给你。
意外的,
你接了。
而我们竟谈了1小时多的电话,
最后只是玩爽地说,
快 7点了,我们不如去吃早餐吧!
你竟然答应了。
吃了早餐,
同学突然提议要去乘巴士“游车河”,
你也爽快地答应了。
等巴士的时候,
你变了魔术,
还戏把戏了我。
我们还真的搭巴士环游了整个SUNWAY区才回来。
9-10点多了。
到路口时,
原本要回家的我们看见你吃惊的样子,
停住了。
你说,
你们要回去了么?不是说了要看我的房间么?

说过的东西,
你总会记得。

她们不时会说,
他在哪里啊?打电话问他啊!
我经常都拒绝这样做。
有些人可能会觉得说,
为什么不主动一点?为什么不把握机会和他聊天? 为什么不乘机听听他的声音?
不是不想,不是不肯。
而是,
不想烦他,没有勇气。

她们不时会说,
他其实很不错的哦,去罢了!
我懂啊。
你的幽默,
你的歌声,
你的性格,
你的体贴,
都好。

只是有时会...
过度自恋和卖萌。 哈哈

我承认我在感情世界里是个悲观者。

只要在远处静静地望着他;
每一天至少看见他一面的身影;
知道他身在何处;
做到以上的一切就满意了。
若一天你要离开,
我也会随你去。
挽留也无用,
不如让你幸福快乐,
悲伤的留给我就好了。
时间会慢慢带过一切,
久了我就会忘掉,
久了我就会好了。
对,
我是这样的人。

我害怕,
我懦弱。
我可以不玩了吗?
可我知道我不能。




加油。

우리 할수있어.

Sunday, 12 January 2014

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, 도경수. ❤

140112, the 2nd birthday since debut.

I have a lot to say, too much to express.
Words couldn't really describe what I feel now as I see you succeeding in


 Shine bright, continue an awestruck-destiny. ☆ 

That over excited and anxious feeling on your birthday as from the start has gone.
It's not that I'm not into you anymore, 
It's that overwhelmed feeling that covers whole.
Need no more to worry.
All I want for you now ain't fame & attention.
I just want you to be happy, and healthy.
That's all. 

Your 21st birthday.
You're legal to get your car license now.
You're able to achieve even more.
I couldn't do much for you,
but I'll pray for you every now and then,
wishing you the very best in everything you do.
We may be thousand miles apart,
but my faith and belief will always be with you.
This is all I can give and do.
Your success is what that could repay me the most.


Wanting to see 
a better Do Kyungsoo,
a merrier Do Kyungsoo,
a more charming Do Kyungsoo,
a more confident Do Kyungsoo,
and
a healthier Do Kyungsoo.



暻秀啊,生日快乐。
140112, 这是第二次为你庆祝生日。

从出道至今,
你历过多少的风风雨雨,无人真的知晓。
但是我们能充分地做的,就是给予你默默的支持和爱护。
拍摄着你人生中参与的第一部电影,
一定要加油加油加油!
21岁了,
要面对的一切也即将会变得越来越多,
越来越复杂。 我能做的,
都有限。
为你祈祷,
为你打气,
为你祝福。
只愿你一切安好,
快乐,幸福,健康。
队里性格被选是最man的你,其实每次的举动都不知觉地可爱。 安安分分的你,其实也会耍帅耍性感。 颜色系列都总是黑色的你,其实歌唱时都仿佛会把世界点缀了色彩。 不善表达自我感情的你,其实看动漫看电影时都会流泪,歌唱时眼眶都会有泪光。 每个人,内心都有着最柔软的一处。
这就是独一无二的你,都暻秀。
也许现在和未来的每一天,
你我的生活节奏都会变得越来越快,
彼此都跟不上,
追不了。
但以后每一年的1月12日,
无论你我身处哪一方,
想念、祝福和关爱的心都会与你同在。
每一年这特别的一天,
我都会陪你一起度过;
即使只能透过屏幕与文字之间的传达。

不变不忘,
只守护好你。

Once again, Happy Birthday 도경수.
생일축하합니다, 내 사랑.