靜 ● 念

靜夜孤人，思绪万伏。
撑起脑袋躺在床铺上反复地想，
未来竟是何物？
离别结识欢聚至怀念；如此的局势，我该如何迎接。

离别，多残忍。
不舍，多无奈。
友人，多可贵。
真情，多稀罕。
真心，多难得。
未来，多迷茫。
自己，多难择。

为自己绸缪的未来道路，已在眼前。
人，总得走。
离开的这天虽不是明天之事，但这是将来。
离别的那天我不会强颜欢笑，我只想淡淡地回望过去。
一切的人事物，总不能跟着带走，只许留恋、珍惜。

失去了才懂得珍惜。
离别了才懂得伤痛。

离开家乡，自立生活求学，认识新圈子；
我不得不办。
结识新朋友是必然的，但知心知己，只有仅仅的几个你们。
大概一个月后的新生活新课程新体验新朋友新旅程，我将会迎面这一切。

廖明杰，我在未来等着你。
冲吧！

This is it.

Page 21 of Chapter 3, Book 2013.

Today's the day.
A day we've all been waiting for,
And a day that everyone's wishing that it wouldn't arrive.
SPM result day,
HOW TERRIFYING.
I won't give myself high hopes,
I don't wanna break down and cry after all of it.
Despite the fact that whether the result is GOOD or BAD.
But who doesn't want the best for 'emselves?!
Everyone does.

Just another 10 freaking horrifying hours more and that's it,
ALL SHALL BE REVEALED.

I can feel my heart racing.
I start to shiver.
I am nervous.
SHIT.

I guess I can't get to sleep tonight.
ㅠㅠ
도와줘요!!!!

Anyway,BEST OF LUCK TO EVERYONE!
and of course, to me mahself too.
B)

끝.

In my mind.

I have a lot to think during these days...
A LOT.
My Results(which is coming out this Thursday,fuck!)
Future,
Courses & Field,
Universities,
Colleges,
Fees,
Expenses,
Abilities,
Potential,
Talent,
Passion,
Capabilities
Etc.
And most of all,
My friends.
I'll miss each and every pieces of 'em,
And of course my hometown,IPOH.

What does my future write?!

No idea.

Facing one of the hardest decision in my entire life,
Deciding my FUTURE.

Maybe it shouldn't be the time to crack my head for all these issues,
I knew I should have thinking and planning and and and preparing for all these shiets one or two months ago.
But I now only get to finalise my decision,the field and course to take.
INTERIOR DESIGN.
GODKNOWSWHAT WHETHER I'M FIT FOR THIS,OR NOT.

Blur.
INDECISIVE.
LOST.
FRUSTRATED.

gawd...

I really hope that everything turns out to be fine,really Really REALLY FINE.
Once again,I pray.

第一步。

人在踏出去的第一步时都很害怕，
像是在过河时猜测石头与石头之间的距离；
都是在害怕。
可是在跌过，越走过时才发现其实踏出第一步并不可怕。
跌倒了，失败了，爬起来，
犹如人生。
人就是这样，明知道是错的，都要继续做。
不是么？
那为什么要害怕踏出第一步呢？！
也许是自尊；
也许是害羞；
也许是恐惧；
也许是面子；
也许…
什么都不是。

是自己。

days of 365 :: 365, 매일저도 사랑해.

365 나매일아침   Every morning

잠들어깨우면 하루시작해   Woken from sleep starting the day

365 이분이좋은   With this good mood

틍도 없을만큼   No pain at all

함께할거야   We’ll be together

니손을잡고   Holding onto your hand

365

놓지 않을게   I won’t let go

너의 앞에서   Infront of you

오직 너를위으로 겁을위두려   Only will I be afraid

365 마친 널 위해   Still it’s for you

태어난것같은   As if from birth

매일을살게   Living everyday

어떤아픔도   Whatever kind of pain

널 비켜가게  I’ll prevent it

365 너에디에서   Wherever you are

절대 너를위한 매일을살게   Definitely for you,I’ll live everyday

365 마친 널 위해   Still it’s for you

태어난것같은   As if from birth

하루 재우며   Restarting the day

어떤아픔도   Whatever kind of pain

널 비켜가게  I’ll prevent it

365

너를 지킬게   I’ll protect you.

❤

。

In Another Universe.

Maybe in another universe, I deserve you.

Maybe there’s a universe out there — happening now — where we end up together,and when I close my eyes at night, I’m not dreaming the way a normal person would. Instead I’m seeing flashes of our lives in the multiverse.They’re not simple dreams because I miss you, right? They’re scientific, anachronistic visions.

FEB 26 (1819)

Hurt. ::【blonote】

being hurt is unaffordable.
but it's okay.

"Afraid. You're afraid. It's better reopening someone else's wounds than running the risk of reopening your own."
-ANTEROGRATE TOMORROW.

-It's not your fault,or anyone else's. Trying to protect yourself is not wrong.

Yes,there's always times like that. Who would ever want to get hurt?!
But that always happens in life,every minute and every second.
No one knows how bad they actually hurt,and how people eventually hurt someone else without knowingly.
But still,in the end of every hardship,
we learn.
:)

- Don't get hurt. -

blonote.

The one and only YOU.

Neither like the stars nor the moon,

holding onto each other for lightyears & centuries.

Wouldn't have the time to be with you.,

as in a position of a companion or a life-time guardian.

Looking at you through pages and technologies,

but I never have a chance to see you right before my eyes.

Distance of a screen,

but miles of a globe apart.

I might not be able to be with you in all of my lifetime,

yet my heart is always there.

HOPE,

DREAM,

LOVE,

MOTIVATION & 

INSPIRATION ;

that's all I see in you.

You're a gift from heaven,

an angel that was born 20 years ago.

thee,

gēse thou,

도경수.

The one and only.

♡

- How much I've missed you. -

❤

Smiling Angel.

你微笑，
我心脏仿佛触电似的。
你大笑，
我心情也跟着变得好。
你苦笑，
我会为你感到很委屈。
你习惯性地咬着下唇来笑,
我总是把止不住。

你羞答答地笑，

我会被萌糊一脸！

而你让我变得痴呆，
看见你时我会痴呆地笑，
因为最痴呆的笑是莫名其妙地跟着别人笑。
所以....
你笑，我就笑。:)

你的嘟心嘴，
我最着迷。
我从未看过这世上有人的嘴唇是心形的，
自从遇见你后。

圆圆的大眼，
浓厚的眉毛，
修长的睫毛，
优越的鼻子，
心形的嘴唇，
整齐的牙齿，
你优越的一切，
是上天赐下的礼物，亦是父母的优良基因，
我都很爱，
也很感谢你这份礼物。

3月的第一天，
为你写了。
COMEBACK准备得很辛苦吧？
要加油加油！
别累着了，看着整团人都瘦了一圈呢 ㅠㅠ
健康第一！！！
会一直耐心等待和支持你们的COMEBACK的！휴^휴
WE ARE ONE!!
엑소 사랑하자！ 화이팅！출발～～！ ㅋㅋㅋㅋ
그리고 ...기영슈아...
사랑해 ❤ 하트.
^♡^
                                                                

❤

내 여보님

0331
这日子，
对于你对于我来说，
并不好过。
时间过得越来越快，
而我们又不常约出。
看到消息时，
有个冲动想第一时间向你慰问还是啥的。
但我最终都没。
不是我没心没肺，
也不是我不够朋友。
我只是想站在你的立场感受一下。
我不想再刺激你现在的思绪，
也不想让你难堪烦躁或什么的。
我只想让你静一静，想一想。
知道你不开心了，
我更加不能打扰。
你说，
“吃laksa，不是酸在嘴里，而是酸在心里。”
我何尝不是？

3个月犹如与世隔绝的日子，
3个月与12孩子们的消息行踪打榜搁置一边，
3个月的不习惯，
3个月的一切，
我怎么不会看在眼里？
平时会胃痛经痛腿儿软的，
碰撞一下就会疼的娃儿办叫，
晒久了就会头晕没力，
手脚也容易瘀青，
遇上不称心的事就会写在脸上，
看不得人啊...
我怎么会忍心，
怎么会放心，
怎么会舍得?
也许你会认识更多不同的朋友，
也许你会遇到和你一起喊 WE ARE ONE 的人，
也许你会体验到我这生体验不了的事，
也许你会变得比我更成熟更坚强更强壮。
有万个“也许”，但我只要你一个“平安”。

无论你有否看见这贴，
我真心为你担忧。
也许我说的一切很无谓，
很厌烦。
我微不足道，
可能我根本不重要，
啊我不知道了。

请原谅我没有给你发问候或发短信，
也饶恕我在推特上对你若无其事般的。
我不想铺张，
不想刻意去让别人知道，
我只想用这方式来表达我要说的一切。
我知道我无法在你面前说以上的话。
我也不是那么主动或开怀的一个人。
煽情的话，我只能用写的。
要我说的话，字句只会变成泪滴。
对不起？
哈哈我只能这样。

得空，
我们再约出来吧。
时间，
不再等了。
机会，
只能由我们来争取，安排。

就...这样先吧？
♥


杰 上
雨夜天。